Luke got his first buzz cut today. I can’t get over how adorable it is on him. I love it! We went to Snip-Its, a salon geared towards kids. He did pretty good until he started getting hair in his mouth. Then he wasn’t happy and he kept getting more and more hair in his mouth while trying to get it out of his mouth. But we made it through and now Lukie B has his summer ‘do.
A Disney trip recap will be coming soon with pictures but I wanted to post this.
8 things I am looking forward to...
-Spending time with Mom, Dad, Shauna, Jeff and Lily tomorrow
- Woodson family reunion in June
- Jim and Sharon’s annual 4th of July celebration
- Having another baby
- Having Nana off for the summer
- Swimming in Maggie and Jo’s pool this summer
-Spending time with good friends next weekend
- U2 concert in October
8 things I did yesterday...
- Had my 2 week post D&C checkup
- Waited an hour and a half for the doctor
- Watched Toy Story a few times with Lukie B
- Watched the LOST season finale finally
- Took a surprisingly long nap
- Ate dinner at Chipotle with Mark and Luke
-Bought a few things at Sam’s
- Loaded our Disney pictures onto the computer
8 things I wish I could do...
- Stop procrastinating
- Have a housekeeper
- Have a personal chef so I wouldn’t have to cook
- Have a pool in the backyard
- Live next door to Jeff, Shauna and Lily
- Stop trying to be in control of everything
- Be more generous
- Make friends more easily
8 shows I watch...
- LOST
- 30 Rock
- Grey’s Anatomy
- The Office
- The Real Housewives of NYC
- American Idol (before it ended)
- Oprah
-Friday Night Lights
Speaking of American Idol….I saw this on a blog I read. It is the winner of the show, Kris Allen, leading worship at his church in Arkansas and singing a Chris Tomlin song. I definitely think the best and most talented person won the show!
We are getting so excited for our Disney World vacation. I LOVED Disney World when I went when I was 15 and I cannot wait to take Luke. I can already feel the Disney nazi coming out in me. Even when we went when I was 15 and Shauna was 11, I was the uptight one trying to get everyone on board for my plans for visiting the parks. We have video footage where I’m studying the schedule and trying to figure out how to maximize our time at the parks and Shauna is basically telling me to get a life. Fifteen years later, things haven’t changed. I have purchased 2 guidebooks and spent many hours on message boards reading about different strategies for touring the parks and minimizing your time in line. I’m pretty sure the same cannot be said for Shauna’s preparation for their trip this past January. I know Shauna thinks I’m weird for planning so much and I can’t believe she is fine just showing up and not knowing the various strategies written by the Disney “experts.” I’m really not a Type A personality in general, but I am a control freak (as discussed in this post) and I am going to have to keep that in check while visiting Disney World with a toddler. I know I just need to go with the flow—BUT—it doesn’t hurt to have a few strategies ready to try to minimize wait times. :) And the best thing is—now I’m the one in charge, so I can only blame myself if my plans don’t work out.
Also, we are planning on bringing Luke’s monkey backpack, otherwise known as a leash. Shauna said she wished she had one while they were there, so I am definitely bringing it. I’m hoping we don’t get the dirty looks there that we get here. I haven’t used it in probably a year, but I definitely did get some dirty looks from people when I used it at the mall and a few other places. One older gentleman even had the audacity to walk up to Luke and say something like, “Poor thing.” It made me so mad. I wanted to ask him when was the last time that he kept up with a very ACTIVE toddler who refuses to hold your hand, a huge stroller and a large diaper bag. My guess is probably never. So, I’m willing to brave the dirty looks if it means Luke will have a little bit of freedom and I won’t have to worry about him running away from me.
Here is a funny video from earlier this week. Mom, Shauna and Lily came to visit and both Luke and Lily wanted to wear costumes.
Don’t worry—Lily was okay. She got right back on the bed and fell off again. Luckily, that Nemo costume had some padding and I think it broke her fall.
Well, we finally did it. We turned Luke’s crib into a toddler bed on Saturday afternoon in time for his nap. He has done WONDERFULLY with the transition. He is still such a good sleeper and he hasn’t gotten up in the middle of the night or anything. The first morning, I heard him on the monitor saying, “I want my Mama” and so I went to get him and he was standing with the door open ready to start the day. That afternoon we went and bought the childproof doorknob covers so he couldn’t get out. But I was so proud of him for waiting at the door. We are so thankful he has adjusted so well. He loves the bed. He showed it off to Uncle David twice when he came over last night. Grammy is sewing him a Thomas pillowcase and sheet because I couldn’t find what I wanted in the store.
Mark and I are dealing with some sad news this week. We learned yesterday that I had a miscarriage. We had gone in last week for an ultrasound and the baby was measuring about a week behind but had a strong heartbeat (189). We were concerned, but hoping for the best and trusting God. We went in yesterday and found out the baby did not have a heartbeat anymore and was still measuring 6 w 1 d (even though I was 8 weeks pregnant) and must have died shortly after our appointment the week before, because that is what the baby was measuring then. I know a lot of people are really private about this kind of thing, but I am not. It’s just not me. We had already told a lot of people about this pregnancy. I have a lot of emotions—confusion, sadness, anxiety. It’s still really hard and it is all I can think about. I will have a D&C on Tuesday and I feel like I will be more able to move on once that is done.
I am still trusting God with all of this. I know He does not make mistakes and I know he has a good plan for my life. I did a lot of growing in my faith last week when we were concerned there might be a problem. I am learning to trust God no matter the outcome. I am such a control freak. I HATE not having control. But I have absolutely no control over this. I had everything planned in my head—kids exactly 3 years apart, both born in the fall, etc….But that is just not the way it is going to work out. It was so easy with Luke, I assumed it would be the same. At best, our kids are going to be 3 years 7 months apart. That was just not what I had planned. But I KNOW that God’s plan is much better than my plan. I really do know that. I forget it sometimes and try to control everything but I truly believe that God knows exactly the right time for me to have another child and my children can be good friends no matter the age difference and my child will do well in school no matter what month he/she is born. It seems so silly that I worry about these things and believe me—it was all put into perspective for me yesterday.
The Bible says we are to be thankful at all times, and I can honestly say that I have so much to be thankful for. I am thankful it happened now and not later in the pregnancy. I am thankful I can have the D&C before our trip to Disney World. I am thankful we have a fun trip planned to Disney World in two weeks. I am thankful I have a supportive husband who has been doing everything around the house. I am thankful for such good family and friends that are supporting, encouraging, and praying for us. And I am thankful for the most precious and perfect (even if he doesn’t eat much) little boy a mother could ever want. I am thankful for God’s grace.
Okay, this has been cathartic for me. This blog is our family scrapbook and although I don’t want to dwell on this experience and I want to move on, I know I’ll always remember it.
